Dear Yogi friend,
“Follow your heart!” or “You got to do what your heart tells you!”.
Such often heard expressions but how do you do that, practically?
And how do you know if you are actually following your heart or if you are following some concept or idea which has been planted in you by your up bringers, teachers or friends and you think it is yours.
Judgments and isolation
In 2009 I did my teachers training course. The schedule my peers and I followed was quite intense.
For a period of 3 months, 6 days a week we practiced Yoga 6 hours a day and on top of that we followed lectures, studied the teachings and prepared our own classes.
After 2 months I was rather fed up with the extreme dive into Yoga and I noticed that, in the mornings when I came into the Yoga hall I was grumpy and I was having severe judgments towards myself and my fellow students.
These thoughts isolated me from my surrounding until we sank into the practice and after practice I couldn’t even remember why I had those Judgments. ( Yoga )
My experience with heart meditation
Besides the teacher training many other Yoga teachings and programs were offered and one them is called Hridaya Yoga, the revelation of the spiritual heart.
Every morning at 7 there would be an hour of meditation in which one focuses on the chest and brings awareness to the heart.
During these meditations I started to realize that my heart continuously communicated with me in a very simple but profound language.
By listening to my heart I would calm down, relax and gain self awareness by understanding what was motivating me on a deeper level.
So when I entered the Yoga hall in the morning after the heart meditation I was more in connection with what my heart was communicating with me.
I started to notice that the reason why I identified with the judgments was because my heart was filled with fear. And when I realized this I felt sad for not being able to connect with others.
The funny thing I found was that these realizations did not make me become less judgmental, the judgments were still there but I became humble because I realized that the judgments had their origin in my own fears.
On other days I experienced that my heart opened because I listened to it and I would enter the Yoga hall literally in a state of loving kindness. In this state I was able to connect with my fellow students in a way that had not been possible otherwise.
Not bad for a person who used to have cynicism as a trademark
Experience vs concepts and moral
Many teachings preach humbleness, honesty or purity as a path and indeed these are signs of a certain level of consciousness and awareness.
But what to do you don’t feel humble? What if you don’t feel pure or honest? Should you act like you do anyway? This might seem as a spiritual thing to do but in fact this is as far from spirituality as you can get.
The moment you try to be something which you aren’t you take distance from what is actually alive in you right now and is a delay in your evolution. True humbleness, love or whatever always comes from a direct experience with that level of consciousness.
Once you connect what is truly alive in you, you can step out of the concepts or moral of how you would like it to be. On these conditions change and growth is possible.
So, how do you feel right now? What is alive in you? Do you feel fear, love, sadness or grieve?
With love and a bit of fear,